Faith. Hope. Love. ♥

Last night i had a terrible fight with my mom..I know this week is a lenten season..but u know things happen..unexpectedly..*sigh* things was blown up of proportion and i'm really pissed off..
i really had a bad night..breakdown and cry the whole night..holding my pillow tight..i'm sick and tired of hearing all those things that my mom kept saying over and over..yeah i know where she is coming from..i understand why she's like that but (argh!) at times it really gets into my nerves..i hate conflicts..but it seems to haunt me every now and then..i wish that someday, i'll be able to find myself..hoping to get there anytime soon.. Sometimes it reached to a point that i wanna runaway from all the drama..leave everything behind and go to a place where no one could see me..no one would even care with anything that i might do..getway from all those people who expects sooo much from us and tell us what and what not to do.. but i know that i don't have to hide and runaway from evrything, i have to face it with head held up high.. i have to be stronger for myself ..and for me to be a better person..
Right now all i want is to be ALONE..finding inner peace that i'm longing to have..i'm still the same person though..quiet and happy (sometimes)..i don't need to seek everybody's approval..err.. that's one thing that i hate the most..but to some people you have to earn it..but for me it's definitely NOT.. as long as i'm happy and i do things that makes me happy then go for it..

Hmmm..tnx to blogspot coz i'm able to voice out my feelings..coz i rarely open up..i wanna solve my dilemmas on my own..i dunno if all these drama even worth it?..Maui is right that most of us are raised to be always mindful and all those things and sometimes we have to breakaway from what most people expect from us or we'll never be happy..and right now that's what i'm planning to do..

Someday i know..time will come that all of them will be proud of me..

Cindy G. Balderrama, RN